coming out of the closet

I apologize to my parents for never calling, and I feel I must now apologize to you dear blog for never writing. I don't love you any less.

I am busy of course this is always true. If I were working from home I could steal a break to blog, but from work it's not a good idea. And thus life speeds past me.

These are the salient details to keep you updated in a minimalist sort of way.

1) Progress has been made (finally) on the health front. Not a solution mind you, but progress and progress is key.

2) I have finally been able to face the other menacing threat- the dark minion. I've finally made some moves, talked to some people, and realize now that it will be okay. My credit, not so much. But me, I'll be just fine.

and

3) I'm totally coming out of the closet here. I'm religious.

Not in the sense of any one religion exactly, although you know, I'll be converting to Judaism and do so happily. But truly, sort of meta-religious. I see God everywhere now, and truly that is the reason that both number 1 and number 2 happened. (I know this is just asking for a scatological joke... number 1... number 2.... have at it)

But that's what got me there. You don't have to believe me. It doesn't matter really. We each get our own personal faith based on our own experiences, and so long as it's doing right, I don't think it's wrong.

My mom tells me she always believed in God when I was growing up. But because Dad was such an enthusiastic iconoclast, she just kept it mostly to herself. Interesting. Well I'm not hiding it anymore. For better or worse, call it Allah, God, nature, or by whatever shape it has made itself known to you. But it is the reason that my heart doesn't hurt (literally) and the storm has subsided. I trusted in God.

Kind of radical, for my family.

*Don't tell my Dad*. Aw screw it, tell him. I am what I am, eh?

Have a beautiful day y'all! If the sun isn't shining when you leave the house today, make your own sunshine. :)